How Allah makes me remember Him.

Assalamualaikum.

I'm sick.

I mean, really sick.

Ok, not the deathlike kind of sickness (like Ebola or SARS), but the kind where the thought of getting-up from bed makes you moan out of distaste.

Pounding head, stuffed nose, sore throat, not having the appetite to eat, all grumpy and bitchy.

Yeah, you get it.

I'm sick and I'm not liking it.

Well, on second thought, this sickness kinds of makes me think about my wrongdoings.

I confess that I'm not the best person to be around this past few days. Well, being bored for over months and months of 'school-break' is kind of getting to me.

Going back to the point.

I'm not sure about you guys, but I believe that going through sickness actually makes me to be a better person.

I believe this because every time I'm sick or going through some sort of weakness (failing a test, getting heartbroken, feeling lonely, ect, ect, ect..), the one thing that comes to mind is how I need Allah in this moment, and how Allah is making me go through all this just to make me remember him in my times of negligence. 

I'm not a good person, I'm far from it, but deep down, I believe that He wants me to change myself and my ways to be closer to Him. 

To be someone who is worthy of His love and mercy.

This post isn't my conceited way of saying that I'm better than you nor am I trying to give out a free preach.

This post is about how I feel thankful to Allah that his tests on me actually makes me think of Him, thus acknowledging my lack of 'ibadah' and 'zikr' for Him.

I believe that everytime I start to forget, Allah is always there for me and for that, I'm forever thankful to be born as a Muslim.

Thank You Allah.

For everything.